21!

Its almost my happy birthday! eek!
You should go join my lovely friends & I:


What should my "first drink" be???
I asked my sister-in-law, who knows ugh, her drinks. She suggested her old favorite(she can't drink anymore, being that she is 8 months preggers).
So a kamikaze perhaps?


I am hoping to have a good time tomorrow night. I had planned for a girls night, but a few of my close guy friends may join. Either way, when I pictured my 21st birthday, this is what I had in mind that it would look like, more or less, you know, minus the like & co:


oh also, I am planning to retire the screen name ROCK&ROLL QUEEN as soon as I turn 21...
I feel like its old now, its part of who I was at age 18, 19(specially 19) and 20.
and I want a change for 21... everyone is telling me I will be a real adult now, not an "amateur adult" like Walter called me at 20. So it more than likely be gone at the stroke of midnight.
Also, I feel kind of awkward when people have approached me saying "Hi, you are "Rock & Roll Queen" right?" Though thank goodness this hasn't happend in like what, 2 years? See, I guess I was living up to the name back in 2007 when I was 19...

What difference a year makes!

Last night I stayed up until past 2am working on a paper, which isn't new but I thought about my life a year ago, and its completely different. Don't get me wrong, I had a lot to do last year, academically speaking, but this yr seems to be more loaded with work.

OCTOBER OF LAST YR:

Me & Daisy @detour '07. Right before finding sexy boys and dancing with them, getting numbers/contact info from said guys, smoking, trading a pic for a drink from some girls, cruising downtown LA,
VIP Private Parties at hip hotels, being snuck in by the DJ, drinks, meeting famous people, drinks, being drunk, B spilling champagne on my top, dancing, kisses, dancing, fuzzy memory, being so drunk that I smash into famous lead singers & get hugs afterwards, feeling lame but lucky, browsing youtube the next day, just in case.

NOVEMBER OF LAST YR:

Daisy & I, already intoxicated & walking to a party, notice the bottles in hand.
God that night was something, free enterance, drinks galore!, dancing, boys, getting a lap dance(don't ask)

DECEMBER OF LAST YR:

Me and Nat. Before going into Dance for Xmas. Smoking, drinking, getting caught and thrown out before we even entered the damn club, sneeking back in & dancing on tables with Nat(thought that part was just fun).

OCTOBER OF THIS YR:

My nights and weekends now consist of homework, homework, and more fucken homework. Its pathetic and sad, but you know what, last year I made some stupid mistakes. This year, I have tried to focus on the future rather than the now, and it is boring, but it will pay off.

But I do miss the fun and carefree nights sometimes...