i miss my best friend

I don't know why, well I kinda have a hunch, but I don't get to see her anymore. We hardly even text. I have had longer more meaningful convos with strangers I meet at the bus stop, literally, then I have had with her prior to tonight. And the last time we hanged out just the two of us was probably during the rides to school for the winter session. WTF. I think I have the right to miss her. I don't miss people much unless they mean something to me. And all of a sudden its like I don't even have a real best friend since she's not here. Granted nothing major has happened in my life that I need her around, but a girl has to have her bestie in her life. Right? RIGHT??

My brother makes fun of me, saying I already lost her & that I should look for a new friend. But I don't think so, we just don't seem to be as close as before. "Attached at the hip" as my math professor would refer to us as. Now we are, well I don't know but not attached at the hip. I have lost all my best friends since I can remember & she's the one I've know the longest, she's like a sister to me. Next year our friendship turns 10. I don't want to lose the fucker.

2006.


There, my moment of melancholy.
I just had to get that out there, it had actually been bugging me for a while now.
But since we just told each other we weren't used to not having eachother around & that we miss eachother, idk I just felt like I needed to vent a bit.
I know too many people. I have many friends. I have a small group of good friends. But I only have 2 best friends. Daisy & Walter. Oh I miss him too, but we actually talk so its not bad.